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  1. Welcome back and thanks for posting this question! ? I was actually talking to someone about this just the other week, and we both agreed we were a lot more affected by being under lockdown than we realized while we were still in it. Isolation and uncertainty had a huge effect on both our headspaces and wellbeing, but I guess these things sometimes become apparent first when you reflect back. I have also noticed how the pandemic has made me worry more, and made me feel a bit more anxious in general. I worry for elderly family members and friends and those who are in 'risk groups' who are so much more vulnerable. I'm sad for feeling I have missed out on time I would have spent with family and friends, but I guess that has perhaps made me appreciate it even more and not take for granted being able to do that whenever I feel like it. It's definitely been a strange year, how do you feel about it?
  2. Dear Angelina, This is an excellent question. I catch myself pretending that it didn't affect me much as infections and deaths are (for now) far away, and there is also no economic impact in our family (yet). Despite me being lucky and privileged in the crises if I am honest, it does come with a psychological cost. I am more nervous, I feel more pressure, and in the back of my head, there's more worry than usual. Worry about family and friends but also about the state of the world in general. An additional layer of uncertainty about almost everything that requires conscious work and subsequent action. To me it seems like this crisis is, on the one hand, making things way worse, and on the other hand, it makes ongoing injustices even more visible and grave and gives us the chance to finally make the steps towards a world that is more just, equal and supportive. At least that's what I am hoping for and working towards. How about yourself?
  3. In The Happiness Trap, Dr. Russ Harris provides a means to escape the epidemic of stress, anxiety, and depression, unlocking the secrets to a truly fulfilling life. Reducing stress and worry Handling painful thoughts and feelings more effectively Breaking self-defeating habits Overcoming insecurity and self-doubt Building better relationships Improving performance and finding fulfilment at work listen free => https://amzn.to/3rbZT8o
  4. Some large scale studies in various countries have shown that infection rates are absolutely similar in all age groups. In Sweden for example the percentage of infected children was equally high as adults or seniors. However as children have much stronger immune systems nearly all of their infections go asymptomatic and undetected. After having researched extensively about Covid-19, personally I don't worry at all about children in my family or myself being infected. The younger and healthier one is, the lower the chance of even any symptoms showing up. Unless their immune system is heavily compromised in my opinion there is very little need to worry.
  5. Hi, and it's nice to meet you too 🌈 Sometimes we are afraid to open up to people around us because we worry they will judge us, but if you feel comfortable to try, it might be worth it. A lot of people are going through things they never talk about, and you sharing your feelings might open up for an honest conversation. ✨ However, if you need someone to talk to and don't feel like you can open up to the people around you, perhaps you should talk to a professional.
  6. Don't worry I also have the same issues when I was facing life hurdles and many ups and downs that's why I have insomnia then I decided for life coaching and now I am easy and live happy life. You should go to become life coaching because life coaching is to improve your mental health and also finish your depressed level.
  7. I feel it almost everyday I'm a student as well, currently taking up a computer science course but kind of confused of the path that I want to get into. If you'll see in this, getting hired a developer is no easy task. I need to have a niche that I need to cater to but what if I don't have any... what if I'm not good enough. Everyday I worry about that and slowly driving me insane. My friend suggested that I get into a contract work to get a jump early on what the real world is going to be. But I just feel scared and doubtful that I'll be able to do it. I already have a game plan and even business contract like how every other contractor ready but nothing's pushing me to do it. I feel like I won't be able to get. I think I'm scared to get rejected. I don't know how to move forward.
  8. How I read this article very much depends on how I define wealth for myself. If wealth is defined in contrast to people with less, it's a concept that I do not support because it means that to be happy yourself, you need to stand on the backs of people with less than you. Suppose wealth is having enough so that I do not have to worry. In that case, I wholeheartedly wish this to everybody, and I also think we could archive that because if distributed well, we can all experience abundance.
  9. Don't worry dear.i know it is very difficult for you. but don't be so sad and don't wast your remaining Upcoming beautiful life .you can share your feelings here...we all are ready to here you and will pray for you
  10. It seems like a lot of us struggle with saying no, and fearing to disappoint others we end up disappointing ourselves instead. Self love and self care is still something we tend to not prioritise enough, and we worry it will be considered selfish to put ourselves first. I'm still working on it, but getting better at finding a balance, and saying no and respecting my own boundaries when I need to. 🌈
  11. Hi , Yes i always woke up at 3:30am and utilise rest time in meditation ,it feel energetic and you always connect with yourself thereafter.. no need to worry to wake up early actually its good ..In our country saints used to woke up at 3:30 am...
  12. Personally, I think that the way to be at peace and happy in ones skin - is to truly embrace that there is no such thing as tomorrow, or yesterday or even coulda, woulda, shoulda. Our entireties belong in the here and now: the present...our presence is only ever felt in the present, at any single point we are the accumulation of all our memories, experiences and knowledge - you reach this place and your soul will sing. Everything we are, everything we have done, every love, loss, rejection, betrayal, surprise, pain and pleasure we have ever felt is all that we are. We cannot alter what has been, but whatever has been, has gone, and here you are. Accept it. Are you happy, do you feel that if you passed tomorrow (or that your wish to not wake at least was granted) it would be ‘fine’ or ‘ok’? Well, it is and it would be. The rock would still spin. But accept what has led you to here, accept it as it is alone for what it is (nothing) and you are then completely free to take each next step, next try, next laugh or cry without fear, worry or apprehension, your path hasn’t been trodden, your story yet to be told...our lights, our lives are boundless, attracting and repelling energies at all times in order to keep the balance. It’s rather lovely apparently 😬😊
  13. There is so much to do right now and so little to worry about the future for, don't forget our actions begets reaction, its what you do today that will make tomorrow a lasting memory so start making decisions wisely.....be. Great week ahead of you.
  14. It's true that the stress of everyday life such as paying the bills and taking care of a family are often something that can block happiness for many of us. Although money definitely doesn't equal happiness, it helps if at least the worry of making ends meet each month is taken out of the equation.
  15. You are happy when you feel the emotion of love. When you realize (or more accurately feel) that that is the case, it is as if your soul has reached home. Many people have said exactly this before, and some of us find this description too simple and insufficient. If you disagree with me, I would like you to perform an experiment. A good way of realizing the importance of love is to find out how life would be without any love whatsoever. Pretend that you live in a world where no-one is liked. You don’t even like yourself. What would make you happy in that world? Reflect upon this for a while. You maybe insist that you, after all, still will be able to enjoy the taste of a cake directly taken out from the oven, or enjoy things like good music or a beautiful sunset. After all, our bodies give our brains signals of sounds, pictures and sensations of taste. In order to better understand what this loveless world is like, you have to regard your mind as a radio receiver, with the ability to process several frequencies simultaneous. If your mind is set to only process signals of sensory input, but will discard any signal of love, you will of course still be able to hear the music, feel the taste and see the sunset. But your brain will not register any feeling of enjoyment, simply because you will filter out such signals (or frequencies, to go on with the radio metaphor). Well, it’s high time to change our point of view. Now, I wish you to add love to your imaginary world. Everybody in this world like each other, and everybody are united as one big family. Now, you probably realize how the cake will taste, how the music will sound and what it will feel like when the sunlight is fading out behind the trees. Later on, you will be guided through this experiment in a more direct and concrete way. But in order to prepare you, I will let you examine what love is, and make you understand the keys for enjoying such emotions. To put it simple, you choose if you like or dislike someone. That choice, of liking or disliking, is based on your opinions about how you should live your life. Your opinions about how you should live your life are in turn based upon your understanding of living. So whereas love in itself is a feeling, the reason for liking someone is based on understanding. You like someone because that person cares about someone. Consequently: the more someone cares, and the more people that person cares about, the more you are able to like that person. If you reflect upon this, you will understand that this is the case. If this seems to simple and insufficient, imagine this scenario: Your neighbour’s cat Missy has climbed up a tree, and cannot come back down. You are ill and feel really sick, so you can’t be of any help. However, you do your best, and make an emergency call. This emergency service lets robots do the work. These robots are accurately programmed to give their help the right way, taking into account how the patients seem to feel. Soon a robot named Tommy arrives. He gently brings Missy down to the ground. When the mission is over, he scratches Missy between her ears. She purrs in contentment. After all, Tommy is a machine. Well, he saved Missy’s life. But he doesn’t have any emotions, and he only did what he is programmed to do. It is you, who did what you could do (taking your illness into account), who deserve to be liked. This story shows that caring is the reason for love. Moreover, it shows how important it is to be aware of the emotions that lie behind a person’s behaviour. The more you understand someone (in other words, the better you know someone), the more you are able to like that person. I explain further: the more you know about how a person is feeling during different stages of life, the better you understand of how much caring there is in that person’s soul. And as I explained earlier, the more caring a person is, the more you are able to like her or him. Getting to know someone better, of course might give you insights that makes the love for that person decrease, or even fade out completely. But anyway, love that is based on false assumptions, isn’t real love after all. It is of course the case, that the more people you know, the more people you are able to like. Moreover, you may pay your attention to several things (in this case, persons) at the same time. Consequently: if more than two persons spend time together, it is possible to feel love/friendship for everyone in the group at one given moment. However, if you have lots of friends or a large social network, you might face difficulties achieving deep, meaningful social contacts. The important thing here is to feel what is right for you. The more people you care about, the more emotions of love you are able to enjoy. I explain this with a story: Claire is your best friend. You have empathy with her to such a degree, that you care as much about her as you care about yourself. One day, when you go for a walk in the woods, you suddenly get the sight of your friend from a distance. She tenderly looks at a deer that curiously looks back at her. At this moment, you don’t enjoy your own love. In this case, you enjoy Claire’s love for the deer. As you care as much about your friend as about yourself, it doesn’t matter that you aren’t involved. You are happy because Claire is happy – you are happy because you enjoy the love that she is feeling. However, to reverse the reasoning from before: if you have few friends, who you know very well, you might find yourself with a relatively small social network. But as I said before: the main thing is that your way of living feels right for you. The more you care in general, the more love you are able to enjoy. I will reconnect to your friendship with Claire. In this case, you are on your way to work. You are late, so you are in a hurry. On your way to work you get the sight of Claire, playing with her dog. Just by watching them, you realize their strong bond to each other. However, you don’t give this much attention. Instead, you worry about getting late for work. Love is an emotion – not a thought. You don’t have an experience of love when you think to yourself: I like Claire”. You have the experience of love when you feel how you like Claire, because she is the way she is. As I said before: That experience is an emotion – not a thought, that might be expressed with words or other symbols. Now, that you know more about love and about what makes you enjoying these emotions, it is time to put the pieces together. Now, you will perform the experiment that shows that love is the reason for happiness. But this time, you will perform the experiment in a more direct and tangible way. Do something that you normally enjoy: play music, and/or make yourself something nice to drink. While you listen to the music, sip on your drink, or whatever you feel like doing, you have to devote your attention to something that is completely meaningless. You might for instance spend your time counting the dust balls in the room. If you have cleaned so carefully that there aren’t any dust balls, you might try to figure out where the first dust balls will be vissible. You still have to listen to the music, and feel the taste of the drink. The purpose of this part of the experiment is to pay attention to your sensory input, while you are engaged in your meaningless activity. Now, take a break and just let go of your thoughts. If you like, you might wait until the next day. Now, it’s time for the second part of the experiment. Now, you have to do the same as before: turn on the same playlist as before, and have the same drink as last time. But this time, you will not count dust balls. Instead, choose someone that you like. Maybe it’s time to appreciate yourself for being the fantastic person that you really are. You also may choose a friend, a family member, a partner or a pet. Of course, you may choose several people. It is even possible to perform this part of the experiment with others. In this case, you have to agree upon a time for this part of the experiment, which ensures that all of you really know and feel that you are sharing this experience. While you listen to the music and feel the taste of the drink, pay as much attention as possible to the love that you feel for the person or persons that you have chosen. It might feel better to use words like friendship or devotion; that doesn’t matter, those words are after all words for some form of love. Let the emotion of love get stronger, by memorizing what this person has said and done, that makes you like him or her. And don’t forget to follow the flow of the music and to sip on your drink. Let the second part of the experiment last as long as the first part did. Then, it’s time to finish. Now, it is time to compare: How did it feel to do something that you like, while paying attention to something meaningless? How did it feel to do the same, while paying attention to love? In love and light, Pelle
  16. Sometimes people don't know what their losing, until they already lost it. I know how it feels to be mistreated by a friend that wasn't really my friend , but it took time to get over, of course. I just wish I saw what was really going on. Don't worry you will find amazing, true friends before you know it. You can't hang in the past it just taints the future. You will make it! Just know you will be okay because you are strong.
  17. When I started to join Buddhist societies in my adulthood, I realized compassion is always been one of the "top priorities" in our practice or objectives. Not that I'm short of compassion, I always noticed something amiss about the "compassion" promoted by my fellow practitioners. They tend to unknowingly tied their compassion to a "hoped" outcome. And probably because of our Eastern culture , everyone hoped to gain good merits through the process. But I never buy into that, nor I coached myself to have a compassionate heart. To me, compassion has no string attached and is very pure by itself. To have it coming naturally to my mind and fused into my body would be the greatest reward. How about the other receiving party? Why worry? If you are so pure, their heart would have received it warmly, no matter what would be the outcome. We don't have to be "forever" compassionate; just one solid heartfelt compassion would be enough to melt your heart for your entire life! And once you felt it, there's no turning back. ?
  18. Hi Calvin... Well this eclipse as I said will be effecting energy the most as many mixed energies so yes many would be feeling drained. Also people who connect with divine forces would feel creative and enlighten so this also makes one feel drained. Don't worry.. Have a good rest and try to listen to some fun music lol. Do something which thrills you. ?Good luck And glad to know you also cancerian. Me too cancer zodiac sign ?
  19. There's so much wisdom in your words @Candy ? I attended a live session with Rick Hanson. He taught us an excellent little exercise. When we fear something or worry, it's that little red light we focus on. While it is necessary to pay attention to its message and take appropriate action, it soon is time to open our gaze to the big picture. Dr Hanson called it "what is also true". For weeks we now didn't find flour in the supermarkets here. It's easy to focus on that and let the feeling of scarcity piggyback its way in. Then I stop and see what's also true, and I can not name all the things I have enough of in one day. And this perspective allows me to open up, and openness makes it easier to feel connected. Rick Hanson suggested to take a breath and dwell in the positive experience of enough air to breathe.
  20. For years I was challenged by depression and anxiety to a point of being unable to function in the world. At my lowest point, I was overwhelmed by the fear and worry and darkness of the world I was experiencing, things became unbearable and life to me at that time seemed unliveable. I had searched for any kind of comfort from the pain for many many years to no avail! An old friend of mine had sent me a link to a YouTube video of a guided meditation by Jason Stephenson (check him out if you haven’t heard of him, he is awesome) I listened to the 7 minute guided meditation with an almost closed mind, thinking (as I had for most of my life) that nothing would work for me. I have been involved with many therapies, I had been diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar, I have been prescribed so many different medications over the years that didn’t help me at all, I just didn’t respond to any of it (I understand that sometimes medication IS necessary, and it does work for people who do respond to it) I had nothing left, I felt lost and hopeless! I listened to the guided meditation, I allowed myself to just go with it. There were a few brief moments during that meditation when the heaviness I had been struggling became slightly lighter, allowing me to take a breath and sigh. I was relieved of the dark weight for maybe 2 minutes during the meditation, that 2 minutes gave me the freedom I had been seeking for most of my life. this was 2 years ago, and since then I have meditated daily (often multiple times) I now only have brief moment of the darkness that I used to live with daily. Most of my life now is filled with positivity, the meditation allowed me to create space for myself, to love myself, to enjoy life. The dance of life now is a two way thing. I can flow with life, I am able to grow both professionally and spiritually, my relationships are better, my ambition and drive are now a big part of me and, most of all, I am accepting of all that life is....that 7 minute meditation changed my life in such a profound way. I find my peace and solace in meditation, but because of meditation, there is also peace and solace wherever I am, whatever I do, in all the spaces in between. Meditation is free, it’s relatively easy to do, you don’t need any equipment, you can do it anywhere, make it as quick or as long as you like, it can be fun, it’s interesting, it’s a wonderful way to become alright with life, in fact, life will become your friend. Just like beauty can be found in negative spaces, peace can be found in chaos.
  21. I am sorry for your pain. Your post really touched my heart and I know just have you feel. I really do. My son Robin hung himself 20 months ago. He too was 33. My Mom died 2 years ago (in 10 days) and so I have confronted the passing of loved ones. Please take time for yourself. Don't worry about anyone else other than your child. Don't forget to eat and sleep and all the things we take for granted. It takes time to process this kind of loss. Everyone has their own time table. I am an empath and other things. I can now talk to my son. One day you may be able to connect with your x's spirit. But just know he is now out of pain and connected with pure source energy. He is joyful and excited again about his reality. If you want to talk to me more please feel free. *hugs*
  22. You are a divine creation!! YOU were what was decided was needed at the time of your birth! You need not worry yourself with WHAT OTHERS ASSUME...i too was from a supportless background and had to overcome severe traumas on my own. The town I live in does not even have a doctor for psychiatric care that allows one to feel the emotions they feel. Every little wee bit of emotion I felt while at the doctors was expected to be suppressed and ignored as much as possible. It was KILLING MY ENERGY AND IN TURN ME...so, regretfully I turned inward..at a total loss for where to turn next if my own doctors office couldn't help me. It was then that i was gifted with my awakening. TOTALLY STRIPPED OF MY EGO I BEGAN TO SEE THINGS WHILE MEDITATING, (which was odd for me as i am not able to visualize well,) but i now recognize i was being gifted ATTUNEMENT!! As i began the schooling for reiki (which i had never heard of prior to my meditations becoming so involved) it was revealed to me that the akashik records FOUND ME, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND...i now am currently seeking its guidances from home on a daily basis and though i will not say i dont feel the negative energies from my past being expelled, i know that once this process is completed I WILL BE A CONDUIT FOR REAL SOURCE ENERGIES TO FLOW TO THOSE IN NEED THROUGH ME...ME...LITTLE OLD ME WHO BEFORE WAS NOTHING TO ANYONE! Depression and anxiety are no longer ideas i tell myself i have. And low and behold i simply no longer have the black cloud i did when i told myself i was a depression patient.
  23. hello all ! i met someone over two years ago. before even noticing physical attribute i fell in love with his energy as soon as he sat dowm before me . it was like a vortex of familar energy calm but strong it settled me down almost putting me to sleep. once i saw the face to the energy it was unbelievable he was like something i dreamed into the world . every time my roommate would bring him by the instant we locked eyes it was intense and overwhelming we would just stare for a second as time went on I noticed a push-pull dynamic there were brief periods where he would be in and out of my life we would play The blocking unblocking game on Facebook mainly me in the start I always sensed he would come back I always trust that he would be back when he did leave for short periods of time out of my life during those times I felt anxiety and missed him we weren't really close friends at the start but I felt like I known him my whole life and maybe lifetimes before I never read about twin flames or soul mates during our separation I would read up you know trying to put in my symptoms of our connection and twin flame came up it seemed like the perfect description of what was going on. anyway I recall a time where we sat down in my bedroom and I felt this heavy energy around us it was almost like falling into a vortex and it was strange I remember hearing something outside of my mind saying I known you four lifetimes or something along those lines I can't remember exactly what it was was almost like I went into a deep meditation for a second and I have no recollection but I'm glad it was just intense energy imagine The vortex around us things will fall over for the following weeks there's lots of energy high vibrations I just recall him making me like so happy I knew I could trust him I knew when we would fight it was coming out of a place of love and it's more like constructive criticism we didn't talk much but it was like me to look at each other and we just know what was going on she said to me before I know you better than you can imagine which is strange because you know we never really spoke. I remember first in the beginning I picked him up from his home and as soon as I got in the car I felt the Simpson pieces usual almost onto meditative state I'm a thought crossed my mind saying you feel like home I have no clue what the word home men and apparently walked eyes he was staring at me through the rearview mirror. as a relationship got stronger the energy got more and more it's like I just knew him so well without actually knowing him she would always come around at the right times he would always answer my messages when he did it's like he knew what was going on with me there were times where I knew it was going to run with him I would sit there be like he's making coffee and I would message him he could home you know sitting by the coffee maker there were signs from the universe almost as if the universe is writing to me and bold italics like like home there are times where he would say I'm not home right now or you know I don't feel at home and I would feel a sense of I love you I'm associated with that word that's at the universe word in bold italics you would leave items to my house and it's almost a bold italic moment of I'll be back in always to come back we have similar personalities but the same time very Jane Yang push and pull type of personalities movie with this degree we would just agree he had qualities lilacs I had qualities that he lacks only had say mirror in qualities but they said it always came from a place of he cared I was in an abusive relationship at the time I met him and then he abusive relationships we both were on drug addicts once I met him my life started clearing up it became clear to me I needed help the idea of maybe a life with him in the future cat crossing my mind and you know that wasn't the right reason to go to rehab about a year or year-and-a-half later I can go to rehab we hung with the same circlebut I felt like I know him I whole life I may be like times before I never read about since lanes or soulmates during our separation I would read up yo trying to put in my symptoms of our connection and twin flame came up its seem like the perfect description of what was going on. anyway I recall a time where we sat down and my bedroom and I felt the heavy energy around us it was almost like falling into vortex and it was strange the I remember hearing something outside of my minds saying I know you for lifetimes or something along those lines I can't remember exactly what it was theirs almost like I went into meditative state when receiving these messages . I would receive these messages often when with him . There was a time I drove to pick him up and the minute he got into the car and instantly felt at peace as usual and a thought came outta no where almost like a loud o feel at home . I didn't get recoginize the meaning of home in twin flame relationship at the time . About a month in my energy was going hay wire things were falling off the walls and at times when we walk together it was like a magnetic pull toward each other . Symbols became almost metaphor or a secret language like home when used between us vibrated with I love you and car became a symbol I have no clue what that symbolized but he would see a car and say that's beautiful almost as I'd speaking to me directly or he would tell me what needed to be fixed with his car like it needed fuel and I would be hungry or it would be overheating or he'd tell a about about a car and I'd be dehydrated almost as if speaking to me . Me and him both struggle with addiction I was in a abusive relationship (now my ex boyfriend) at the time my boyfriend father of our son was natrually insecure around him and I spent most time with other men . He would act weird and intimidated even though there was nothing pervceivable being done . I could tell at glance what he was thinking about other people or situations around us he would make a joke that sounded like normal but it was funny to us . Once he entered my life changes started happening rapidly for the betterment of my life and spiritually development . People who were not true to me disappeared . People didn't like us together they would instantly get defensive (those who weren't good for me or him ) . I lost people i ended up getting evicted he never would give me easy advice or baby me he would make sure I got the lesson or overcame a struggle . My child got taken temporary I lost my home my belongings and at some point my mind . Between the drugs and the situations things got what seemed like worse at the time...and I wanted to give up. He literally was the only person who could cheer me up or I could trust . Looking back I now discovered a pattern of codependent nature of me so there was a lesson In that. Eventually his finances and his car became a struggle he started going down hill to and our connection became strained both feeling negative energy and emotions. It was harder and harder to see each other every time we would make plans the oddest thing would happen as if preventing us the universe itself . I started to not understand him as much . We did have sex once and my intuition became so strong and my sense of him that and the drugs did not Mix with that almost causing a pshychosis because my vibration and the messages were in mean spirit . We became more and more distant after . I remember knowing a immense separatation was going to occur . He started seeing someone as I was off and on with my boyfriend at the time and he never really spoke about her . He became distant . I have no clue if he knew all these things were happening on. Concious level like I did. He did aknowledge once or twice he knew me better then I thought or he would somehow know what was going on iny life and would tell me things about how I needed to do something in order to better my life . I was so sure god meant for us to be but the signs stop coming the connection stopped. I stopped feeling his energy I almost forgot who he was as a person . He started avoiding me Eventually rehab was my only choice I departed for flordia two months ago . We spoke the whole way there now I am in halfway and loving being sober I still discover little lessons in ur relationship daily and no matter what I can't seem to forget him or worry I can sense his energy mildly and he went of the grid. He won't text back old friends who were in our circle can't get him on text or social media which gives me hope he to has let go of that life . He was only using with me at the time I was his main source and he was mine. It did become toxic in that sense . I just hope we're in separation and that I wasn't crazy and god has a plan for us . I know deep down he loved me and I know with each and more clear day and clarity what I felt was real but now I question it. The obsession is lifting but I can't forget him or thank him enough for all he did for me and my growth spiritually and as a individual . He did ask my friends how I was doing at rehab so he did care but the silence makes me feel like we never had anything and it was in my head when I get to dount I have no I'll will towards him it's a unconditoonal love . There are sonsa I listen to that he used to play in the car that was almost like he was speaking to me . We had common music tastes and personality wise he has qualites I didn't and I had quality he didn't but much alike emotionally and on th same journey's .same things happening around the same time. Qualites that clashed and ones that mended and coincided. Ones he pointed out in me that he also had but wasn't aware once that started happening that's when tension and resentment arose when we would give eachother honest cristicism about parts we couldn't see In ourself . Shared the same mental health issues depression . Bipolar ect. I almost could read his mind I knew when he was gonna text me or knew he was drinking coffee id wonder what he was doing and bang he would text me saying having coffee almost as if the universe was verifying I wasn't crazy . When I'd pick him I could feel my energy briding to his house . Before the separation I would drive to our friends around the corner and I'd hear loud as say vibrations of distress getting louder as you'd get closer . Could be insanity but I was the most magical intense relationship and beneficial to spirtial growth i ever found in any connection . I'm sad it's no longer I always imagined us healthy sober and clear . The times we were well slept and properly caring for ourselves we were perfect and understanding of one another up until a drug would enter our bodies then it went well to hell ..I'm not fully understanding this relationship or twin flames soulmates ecr so any advice input ect. This distance pulls at my heart more then my mind but keeps me motivated but it hurts .trying to let go is easy. Moving on isn't something I'm trying to do I need to focus on me and my recovery just for today but anytime a male comes in or I get an attraction god takes them out of my way . All advice welcome Thanks for helping me clear this . Namaste
  24. We are told here to not take the masks that health facilities need because they are having a hard time finding them. I think that people in the 30 and under range have very little radar as far as what is going on with coronavirus. People with kids are in blissful ignorance when schools are huge virus breeding grounds. Families tend to get infected first. I have to take my dog to the vet on Thursday and I am apprehensive about it. I'm going to wear gloves so I can just discard them before I come home. That seems like the most sensible idea to me rather than having to worry about what germs are on my hands after touching the door at the store. My pet on the other hand... Well she doesn't have any restraint and we don't know yet whether pets can transmit to humans. We do know they can get a mild form of coronavirus.
  25. I am 77 and I have a list of things I no longer bother to do: wear make up worry about how I look try to please everyone filter what I say (actually I learned that one a long time ago) much to my adult children's dismay shop in noisy stores or deal with urban sprawl (thank goodness for online shopping). Here are things I would advise the younger generation: save for retirement don't try to keep up with others who have more than you do the grass is not always greener on the other side of the fence (on the other hand often it is, so go for the new job, new friend, new location etc) eat healthy don't drink so much don't smoke at all marry the right person the first time (I wasn't smart at 21 but I was very lucky)
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